Objects in Consciousness
I exist, and I know that I exist. Not only that, I have a fair idea of what I am as an existing entity. My senses signal to me a solid self moving about and my mind allows me to conceptualize an image of myself, with the rest of the world in relation to this point of reference.
But are my conclusions about my own self true? There are spans of time during which my concept of self along with the conclusions and premises that give it reality cease to exist, but I continue to exist. Where do I go during this? Where does my 'I' go? Who is there to watch it all fall back into groove, like a hand fitting into a glove, when I begin to conceptualize my reality again? Am I experiencing reality as a sub-entity within my own self?
The deeper I observe the ideas, beliefs, emotions, residues of experience and predispositions that give substance to my conceptual self as a willful entity, the more they lose their reality. And yet, I continue to exist. As I observe deeper, some object/cluster of objects in consciousness is deemed more important than others in a sky full of constructs, and begins interacting with what seems to be a deeper construct of self, as though the object had a mind of its own. This judgement of value compromises observation, and being begins to condense itself around this object/cluster of objects.
But who deems one object of consciousness as more important than another? Do objects in consciousness theorize about other objects? Who decides where observation stops and conceptualizing begins? Does observation ever stop, or is it a continuous choice-less reality? Is observation an act of will? Whose will? Who observes?
